Dear T —

Some thoughts.

(All good, promise.)

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(first)

You did nothing wrong.

I understand…

…and thank you for sharing.

The madwoman? So adorable.

(Can you solve problems of the heart with your brain?

Still, my favorite feature is behind your eyes.)

I’ve learned not to skip too many steps.

No, it’s not over. It hasn’t even started!

Also, my nose finally healed.

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(second)

When you selectively share, you always have more to share.

I’ve struggled the past few months.

I felt trapped in an eclipse.

(just a metaphor)

First, work.

Since January, I didn’t know if I had a job.

Then, health.

I’ve had some problems, nothing contagious, or fatal.

Plus, well…

Finally, I got good news — all on the same day — the day of your last note.

(coincidence?)

I have a job. I have my health. I have a light.

(good things come in threes)

Just had déjà vu too…

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(third)

These letters have meant a lot to me.

They gave me comfort.

Thank you.

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(fourth)

Kairos: one of the first things my mentor Zelda taught me.

Greek, ecclesiastical, she explained it as —the perfect right time for something to happen.

Did I go too fast?

(forgive me)

I’ll come soon.

I promise not to go too slow.

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(fifth)

Games: I don’t play them.

If I did, I would say —I’m not asking you to wait for me…

Actually, —I’m begging you to wait for me…

(—My idea of love is that love isn’t ashamed of nothing.)

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(sixth)

Olympic games: I’ve learned Koreans excel in archery, fencing, and shooting.

Y’all are violent.

(Not even mentioning NorKor.)

I will not mess with you.

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(seventh)

Church: I went Sunday.

This always happens:

The sermon theme? —Grow up!

It was for me.

(From the newspaper —You have obligations to people. You can’t make dumb choices.)

I need to be the person that the people in my life need me to be.

I accept.

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(eighth)

Doctor: He made me cry.

He said —You’re still young…

I have time.

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(ninth)

Ikigai: From the TV —Purpose helps you do amazing things.

Not what are you doing?, but why are you doing it?

(I write to heal.)

Also —Her spirit desires perfection.

(Mine desires expression.)

What are your answers?

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(random thought 1)

Why do some dogs have one blue eye?

There’s a story there.

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(random thought 2)

As an actress and fashionista, are you ever the same woman twice?

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(random thought 3)

Am I beginning to sound like you?

—All my love, yours for the taking,

D

P.S.

(take two)

—Will you let me buy you a cup of coffee?

(please?)

—Tea is fine too.

P.P.S. Also how about some beef intestines? or pig’s trotters?